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I don't really write in here anymore. It seems like it's really only when I don't' want to write in my real journal, and when I don't want to write in Live journal and have to make it private.

Last night, I was very spontaneous and decided to go meet up with a friend in Franklinville. I decided to do this at about midnight last night, and I had to sneak out of my house in order to do it. I have only snuck out of my house once in my life and that was through my window without a car. This time I just walked right out and started my car in my drive way and pulled away. I had never actually met this guy before, but I have friends who know him. He turned 18 last night so he invited me over. At first I wasn't going to go because I didn't know anyone and I didn't want it to be awkward. But once I got there, he introduced me to the 3 people that were left, and 2 of them were already pretty drunk. I just sat down and watched them play asshole because I had never played it before. After they finished the game, one of the girls was already pretty plastered and was going crazy. She noticed that there was a blender and was yelling at Jay, my friend, because she wanted strawberry daqueris and he said he didn't have a blender. So I helped them make them, but we didn't have enough ice. So it was pretty much vodka with strawberry flavoring. It was okay, but not the best haha. We all went into the living room, and started watching some South Park movie, and Jay and I made out. It was really random, as I didn't even really know him, but it was just a moment thing. But it didn't end there. We cuddled and made out for the rest of the night. We didn't go any further than that, because he didn't want to move fast and neither did I. We just slept together for a little while.

I had to leave at 7 this morning so that I could get home around 7:30, maybe getting home before my parents woke up. And surprise surprise, they were still asleep. I still cannot believe that I got away with sneaking out of my house, going and getting pretty buzzed, and driving home before they wake up. (I was not drunk driving, my buzz was completely gone when I left). I like being spontaneous like this.

But it's sort of odd. Because I do like this Jay guy. I dont' really know him, but last night he was so sweet and I cannot wait for us to hang out again, which will probably be pretty soon. But what about Justin? I mean, this is totally different as Jay lives 40 minutes away, Justin lives 6 hours away. But a part of me is still attached to him and it bothers me because now I'm liking this other guy. Well, It's not like me and Justin are together anyway. He basically broke my heart when we were at all state, i don't belong to him and he can't control my feelings. He was the one who didn't want to talk as much as we used to, so that's what we're doing. It took me about a month to get over what had happened between us, and now that I"m moving on, why should I feel guilty.

This post is really all over the place. I need to go get ready now. I have a church service rehearsal today. I'm excited to see my friends that will be in the bell choir with me haha.