2 posts tagged “random”

I hope that nobody minds that I write in here so often. For some reason, I'm just so absorbed into this whole blogging thing again - I love it. I mean, I've been a blogger since about 7th grade (I think I was about 13. I'm 17 now), but I've had a major falling out all of last year. I want to get back into it. I was actually thinking about trying to get hosted again, and have a blog and everything all over again. But I've pretty much forgotten all the html that I learned, except for the basics.

Sleep over at Elise's house was lots of fun.

Ron and I hung out for a couple hours tonight. And I've realized something - I don't want to be in a relationship with him. I don't want to ruin our friendship right now because it's so fragile after everything we've been through. And I'm not really looking for a relationship with him right now. I want our friendship to grow and to just be really good friends - but everything else isn't what I'm looking for. I thought all summer that I would want a boyfriend, but now that I think about it, I really just wanted someone that I could care about. But not anymore - I have other priorities.

Well, I'm going to go back to my journal now. I have a moleskin journal that I would like to finish. Even though I'm not even half way through it, I'm starting a new journal the day before senior year. So I'm just trying to get as much use out of it as I can before I switch over. I love journals.

Holla! I'm so glad that I got an invite here. This place seems so cool, and I'm glad that I got the username I want. I realized that I sign up for so many new blog sites ONLY so I can get the username I want. With livejournal, it's so hard to get a unique username because there's certain to be someone who already has it. You have to add in these odd numbers that mean nothing to you and that you'll probably forget just to get the username you want. Well, I feel lucky to say that I got "awkward" as my username. I love that word, and I feel like it really does describe me in many ways. But I won't go in depth with that, it might just show in my writing.

And I'd like to really write in here a lot. I don't write in Livejournal anymore, though I should. I got my LJ when I was in 9th grade, and now I'm a senior. It'd be great if I had kept writing to look back at it to see how much I have changed. But I realized that I started to stop posting there as much, once all my real life friends got a hold of it and added me as their friend. Now I feel like I can't really write a lot of things anymore, as a lot of my life is drama that includes them and I can't write about it without somebody getting upset. I probably shouldn't care if somebody got upset or not, as there is a reason why I would be writing about them. But alas, I don't and won't. So here I am. I also have a Blogsome.com blog that I have been writing in for a little while, but I sort of lost interest. I don't have any friends over there yet, and it's so hard to make friends. You can't add them or anything. That's what I'm hoping for here - friends :)

And now that I think I have written a little TOO much, I am off.